OKAY! don't judge me when i say this just give me a chance to explain myself, so tonight i went to see a movie with my best friend, THE VOW, you know it wasn't that bad actually, but what was bad about this movie is how it made me look at the adults in my life and every couple i have EVER seen, and realize that love really is not like what you see in the movies.... well at least i think so? when i look at adults all i see is the same old thing everyday, and it just seems so.......normal. And as much as i hate to admit it i love every little cheesy, romantic, beautiful line in the movie i just saw tonight, and with every smile i caught myself giving to this ridiculously unrealistic movie i felt so common and plain, and i felt  like every other girl in the world who wants a happily ever after like the movies but is to scared to admit because we are smarter than that and we know it probably wont happen like how we imagined it when we were five playing with our barbies. well what ever "LOVE" is suposed to feel like i can deffinatley wait hahaha as tempting as it is to have a boy friend right now my fresh man year of high school and fool myself into thinking we might actually fall in love and all that shit i can deffinatly wait.....well at least wait till i understand what love really is and not just what i want it to be.